1 00:00:18,640 --> 00:00:21,360 A friend of mine asked me to go to this island and smoke a drug. 2 00:00:21,600 --> 00:00:22,600 What kind of drug? 3 00:00:22,860 --> 00:00:23,860 Heroin. 4 00:00:24,160 --> 00:00:25,240 And I said, why not? 5 00:00:26,600 --> 00:00:28,120 I thought that I was pretty funny. 6 00:00:28,920 --> 00:00:30,120 Really, I was pretty stupid. 7 00:00:30,920 --> 00:00:31,920 You sure about it? 8 00:00:35,440 --> 00:00:38,500 My heart just dropped to the floor. 9 00:00:41,100 --> 00:00:42,720 Something inside of me snapped. 10 00:00:45,320 --> 00:00:47,620 and all that sorrow turned to anger and rage. 11 00:00:49,220 --> 00:00:52,760 He looks at me and he said, You die. 12 00:00:53,100 --> 00:00:54,100 You die. 13 00:01:09,700 --> 00:01:10,900 It was 1994. 14 00:01:11,500 --> 00:01:13,960 I was 26 years old, living in Chicago. 15 00:01:15,240 --> 00:01:17,800 At the time, I was very emotionally unstable and insecure. 16 00:01:20,700 --> 00:01:22,660 My father had been murdered when I was two. 17 00:01:26,160 --> 00:01:28,900 I had a really dysfunctional relationship with my mother. 18 00:01:31,420 --> 00:01:35,960 My past relationships had always been alcohol or drug abuse or physical abuse. 19 00:01:38,680 --> 00:01:44,500 But when I got together with Andrew, I felt he was going to be 20 00:01:45,260 --> 00:01:47,700 the person that was able to fill all of those voids. 21 00:01:48,820 --> 00:01:49,820 What is this? 22 00:01:50,020 --> 00:01:54,160 Andrew was the first guy that I'd ever come across that treated me with a lot 23 00:01:54,160 --> 00:01:55,160 love and respect. 24 00:01:57,960 --> 00:01:59,020 I was happy. 25 00:02:00,540 --> 00:02:01,540 You like that? 26 00:02:01,980 --> 00:02:06,060 It was different than anything I'd ever felt before. 27 00:02:13,020 --> 00:02:14,060 But one morning, 28 00:02:15,450 --> 00:02:20,370 Andrew got up and he said, I've got to go to my mother's house. I'll be back 29 00:02:20,370 --> 00:02:21,370 later on. 30 00:02:23,110 --> 00:02:24,790 I just knew that something wasn't right. 31 00:02:30,350 --> 00:02:34,590 He hugged me and he kissed me and he told me how much he loved me and that he 32 00:02:34,590 --> 00:02:36,370 would see me in a few hours. 33 00:02:38,710 --> 00:02:41,490 But I knew at that point that he was gone. 34 00:02:49,450 --> 00:02:50,450 I was devastated. 35 00:03:00,190 --> 00:03:03,670 Then I ran into a friend of mine that I hadn't seen in a while, Jeannie. 36 00:03:03,930 --> 00:03:04,649 How are you? 37 00:03:04,650 --> 00:03:07,350 I'm good. How have you been? I'm good. How's everything? 38 00:03:07,770 --> 00:03:09,670 We had previously lived together. 39 00:03:10,030 --> 00:03:11,030 How's Andrew? 40 00:03:11,490 --> 00:03:14,270 I didn't want to say anything to my other friends because I was so 41 00:03:14,950 --> 00:03:17,250 I haven't seen him. He walked out. 42 00:03:17,760 --> 00:03:20,540 But I felt to her I could tell her the truth about what had happened with 43 00:03:20,540 --> 00:03:21,540 Andrew. 44 00:03:23,780 --> 00:03:25,260 Jeannie and I hung out a few times. 45 00:03:26,060 --> 00:03:27,600 She was telling me about her new boyfriend. 46 00:03:29,280 --> 00:03:30,280 His name is Yanni. 47 00:03:30,940 --> 00:03:32,840 She told me that he really wants to meet me. 48 00:03:38,740 --> 00:03:39,740 Hello. 49 00:03:40,060 --> 00:03:42,280 So later on that evening, they come upstairs. 50 00:03:42,920 --> 00:03:43,920 Welcome. Hi. 51 00:03:44,300 --> 00:03:46,180 Yanni's got two or three bottles of liquor. 52 00:03:47,040 --> 00:03:48,660 And so we start socializing. 53 00:03:49,220 --> 00:03:53,320 And just out of nowhere, Yanni just says to me, Have you ever considered 54 00:03:53,320 --> 00:03:54,580 traveling abroad? 55 00:03:55,000 --> 00:03:56,640 And I said, What do you mean? Like to where? 56 00:03:57,260 --> 00:03:59,320 He said, I don't know, like Thailand or something. 57 00:04:00,660 --> 00:04:04,260 I've been around Jeannie for years. I know what these guys are into. I know 58 00:04:04,260 --> 00:04:05,260 they do. 59 00:04:05,580 --> 00:04:07,660 And I said, You want me to carry drugs, right? 60 00:04:09,980 --> 00:04:10,980 What kind of drugs? 61 00:04:12,780 --> 00:04:13,780 And he said, Heroin. 62 00:04:15,519 --> 00:04:17,940 I'm thinking to myself, I could do that now. 63 00:04:18,920 --> 00:04:21,660 I felt that the worst thing that could have ever happened to me had already 64 00:04:21,660 --> 00:04:22,660 happened. 65 00:04:23,880 --> 00:04:25,280 And that was that I lost Andrew. 66 00:04:29,960 --> 00:04:31,760 And I said, how much are you going to pay me? 67 00:04:32,540 --> 00:04:33,540 $10 ,000. 68 00:04:34,360 --> 00:04:36,860 And I said, I'm not doing it for less than $25 ,000. 69 00:04:40,900 --> 00:04:43,200 I was thinking I could pay off my bills. 70 00:04:48,250 --> 00:04:51,950 Eventually, he said, okay, Angie, $25 ,000. 71 00:04:55,030 --> 00:04:58,930 I'm thinking I can get away. I don't have to be here in this apartment 72 00:05:01,770 --> 00:05:04,030 And I said, yeah, I'll do it. 73 00:05:07,970 --> 00:05:10,230 He said I would be flying into Thailand. 74 00:05:11,350 --> 00:05:13,130 I'll spend a week or two there. 75 00:05:14,090 --> 00:05:16,830 Then on the last day before I'm ready to travel. 76 00:05:17,640 --> 00:05:20,720 someone would come to my room and give me a package. 77 00:05:21,120 --> 00:05:23,080 And I'd just fly home to the state. 78 00:05:24,900 --> 00:05:26,560 I thought that I was pretty special. 79 00:05:28,060 --> 00:05:30,700 And really, I was pretty stupid. 80 00:05:33,560 --> 00:05:34,840 As soon 81 00:05:34,840 --> 00:05:44,160 as 82 00:05:44,160 --> 00:05:47,870 I landed, The first thing I noticed was how hot and sticky it was. 83 00:05:53,010 --> 00:05:54,230 We pull up to my hotel. 84 00:05:56,330 --> 00:06:00,470 I go to my room. 85 00:06:03,810 --> 00:06:04,930 Thank you very much. 86 00:06:13,250 --> 00:06:14,290 About an hour later. 87 00:06:16,850 --> 00:06:17,990 Someone knocked on my door. 88 00:06:19,750 --> 00:06:24,730 There's a guy standing there, very well -dressed, with a big smile on his face. 89 00:06:25,350 --> 00:06:26,350 And he says, hi. 90 00:06:26,730 --> 00:06:29,610 My name is Chika. I'm the person who's here to visit you. 91 00:06:30,530 --> 00:06:32,390 And he said, we need to pack your bags. 92 00:06:34,110 --> 00:06:35,870 And I'm going to show you another part of Thailand. 93 00:06:47,950 --> 00:06:51,790 We pull up at probably the most amazing resort I've ever seen in my life. 94 00:06:54,990 --> 00:06:56,650 It's five star and it's luxurious. 95 00:06:58,370 --> 00:07:00,250 And I said, okay, so what happens now? 96 00:07:01,030 --> 00:07:04,490 He said, well, the reason I moved you out here is because there was a little 97 00:07:04,490 --> 00:07:05,490 of a delay. 98 00:07:06,670 --> 00:07:10,990 There was people that were supposed to bring me money and they haven't shown 99 00:07:13,390 --> 00:07:17,230 He said, I can't do anything else with regard to your trip until this money 100 00:07:17,230 --> 00:07:18,230 here. 101 00:07:19,090 --> 00:07:23,810 He gave me my room key and said, I need to go into Bangkok and get that sorted 102 00:07:23,810 --> 00:07:25,350 out, so I'm going to have to leave you on your own. 103 00:07:25,690 --> 00:07:26,690 I'd be nice to him. 104 00:07:27,310 --> 00:07:29,390 At that point, I was a little bit nervous. 105 00:07:31,290 --> 00:07:35,510 In a situation like this, you would expect them to have it together because 106 00:07:35,510 --> 00:07:38,510 is a pretty serious business deal. This isn't small beans. 107 00:07:46,710 --> 00:07:48,970 Later on that evening, the phone rings. Hello? 108 00:07:49,670 --> 00:07:54,150 And I almost dropped it, because on the other end of the line was Andrew. 109 00:07:54,950 --> 00:07:56,750 He had gotten in touch with Jeannie. 110 00:07:57,190 --> 00:07:59,730 She gave up the phone number, but she didn't tell him where I was. 111 00:08:00,450 --> 00:08:02,230 He said, where are you? 112 00:08:04,230 --> 00:08:05,970 I instantly just got defensive. 113 00:08:06,310 --> 00:08:07,930 All right, you have to ask me that question. 114 00:08:08,570 --> 00:08:10,870 You left me. You don't care about me. 115 00:08:11,110 --> 00:08:12,570 Why are you asking me where I'm at? 116 00:08:13,210 --> 00:08:14,210 I'm in Bangkok. 117 00:08:15,060 --> 00:08:16,800 He said, I know what you're going to do. 118 00:08:17,600 --> 00:08:20,080 You've hooked up with some of those stupid Nigerian men again. 119 00:08:22,220 --> 00:08:23,860 I know what they've convinced you to do. 120 00:08:24,300 --> 00:08:25,300 Don't do it. 121 00:08:25,560 --> 00:08:26,560 Please come home. 122 00:08:27,380 --> 00:08:31,700 And I would really just like for us to be able to talk and see, you know, where 123 00:08:31,700 --> 00:08:32,700 it went wrong. 124 00:08:35,720 --> 00:08:38,720 And I'm wanting to hear that, but at the same time, I'm trying to play tough 125 00:08:38,720 --> 00:08:43,020 guy. And so I said, when I get back in a couple days, we'll talk. 126 00:08:44,240 --> 00:08:49,660 And if we decide that there's something worth fighting for, then we'll go back 127 00:08:49,660 --> 00:08:51,040 to Chicago together and we'll give it a try. 128 00:08:51,800 --> 00:08:52,800 All right. 129 00:08:53,640 --> 00:08:57,560 Bye. So now, after talking to Andrew, I'm getting really antsy. 130 00:08:57,800 --> 00:09:00,040 Because now I want to go home. Now I've got something to go home to. 131 00:09:05,720 --> 00:09:07,420 I spent a few days at the resort. 132 00:09:10,250 --> 00:09:13,430 For the first time, I kind of start questioning, okay, so when is this 133 00:09:13,430 --> 00:09:14,430 going to happen? 134 00:09:19,070 --> 00:09:21,310 On the third day, she called me. 135 00:09:22,310 --> 00:09:23,310 Hello. 136 00:09:23,470 --> 00:09:25,910 He said, we're ready to send you now. It's time to go. 137 00:09:27,630 --> 00:09:31,510 He said, leave your luggage. I will pack up your bag later this evening. 138 00:09:32,530 --> 00:09:34,370 Right now, I just need you to get to Bangkok. 139 00:09:34,950 --> 00:09:35,950 See you later. 140 00:09:36,390 --> 00:09:39,570 So I put my stuff together in my room as best as I could. 141 00:09:40,460 --> 00:09:41,460 And I left. 142 00:09:46,660 --> 00:09:49,260 I took a bus that would take me straight to Bangkok. 143 00:09:58,540 --> 00:10:03,380 I was trying to mentally prepare myself for the fact I'm getting ready to pick 144 00:10:03,380 --> 00:10:07,420 up a bag of drugs, put it on my person and take it to an airport. 145 00:10:10,250 --> 00:10:14,070 And I noticed that the bus closed down and pulled over. 146 00:10:25,190 --> 00:10:28,750 All of a sudden, I saw all these police officers just coming onto the bus. 147 00:10:30,010 --> 00:10:33,710 I was like, wow, they're really after someone. This is really crazy. 148 00:10:36,610 --> 00:10:39,230 I see them looking back and forth, side to side. 149 00:10:42,060 --> 00:10:45,460 And they start walking closer and closer towards me. 150 00:10:48,660 --> 00:10:51,880 I'm sitting next to some criminal, some killer. What's going on here? 151 00:10:58,840 --> 00:11:02,400 And as I turn back around, they're standing right there in front of me. 152 00:11:04,700 --> 00:11:06,220 Boom. Hi. You're the one. 153 00:11:07,880 --> 00:11:10,940 My heart just dropped. 154 00:11:11,280 --> 00:11:12,280 to the floor. 155 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:17,320 I'm thinking, did Shike get arrested? 156 00:11:19,960 --> 00:11:22,060 Have they been following me this whole time? 157 00:11:26,040 --> 00:11:28,360 Do they somehow know what I'm about to do? 158 00:11:35,900 --> 00:11:38,300 The police officer is looking at my passport. 159 00:11:40,620 --> 00:11:41,700 He's not speaking English. 160 00:11:43,140 --> 00:11:44,140 I don't understand. 161 00:11:46,480 --> 00:11:47,860 I didn't know what to do. 162 00:11:50,480 --> 00:11:55,860 Until then it hit me what the police officer was saying. He thinks I haven't 163 00:11:55,860 --> 00:11:57,020 come and settled my hotel bill. 164 00:11:57,340 --> 00:12:01,640 I'll be back tonight. My friend will be here with the money. This is all a 165 00:12:01,640 --> 00:12:03,280 misunderstanding, okay? 166 00:12:03,580 --> 00:12:04,980 But they're not having it. 167 00:12:06,300 --> 00:12:08,440 I didn't do anything. I'm coming. 168 00:12:09,660 --> 00:12:13,880 I'm very frantic now, and I'm very emotional, and I'm very, you know, 169 00:12:13,880 --> 00:12:14,880 distraught. 170 00:12:21,380 --> 00:12:25,300 And I looked back. People were up hanging on the windows like this, 171 00:12:25,300 --> 00:12:27,800 the foreigner who's just broken the law, who's going to jail. 172 00:12:30,020 --> 00:12:31,400 They put me in the back of the car. 173 00:12:33,520 --> 00:12:35,240 I just was scared. I was afraid. 174 00:12:37,140 --> 00:12:40,800 I was saying, if you can please just... Call my friend. He'll explain 175 00:12:40,800 --> 00:12:41,800 everything. 176 00:12:42,460 --> 00:12:43,460 Please. 177 00:12:43,620 --> 00:12:47,860 He took out his cell phone, and I gave him the number, and he called TK. 178 00:12:49,580 --> 00:12:56,120 I didn't hesitate one moment to give up TK's phone number, because in my mind, I 179 00:12:56,120 --> 00:12:57,720 really wasn't breaking the law. 180 00:13:10,209 --> 00:13:11,790 Eventually, Chiki answered the phone. 181 00:13:13,570 --> 00:13:20,570 He was able to convince the officer to let me go back to my hotel, 182 00:13:20,770 --> 00:13:23,550 and he would be there in two hours. 183 00:13:24,170 --> 00:13:28,670 The policeman looked like he wasn't sure, but he said, okay, but she's not 184 00:13:28,670 --> 00:13:30,670 leave the hotel until you get there and settle the bill. 185 00:13:32,970 --> 00:13:34,370 If she leaves, we'll arrest her. 186 00:13:41,840 --> 00:13:45,060 When we pull up, I see that the manager of the hotel is standing outside. 187 00:13:49,260 --> 00:13:53,780 I remember being so embarrassed when I got out of the car, having to walk 188 00:13:53,780 --> 00:13:55,820 through the hotel lobby like the walk of fame. 189 00:13:59,600 --> 00:14:03,880 So I quickly just ran down the hallway to my room, went in, closed the door, 190 00:14:03,880 --> 00:14:04,880 threw myself on the bed. 191 00:14:11,820 --> 00:14:13,560 This isn't what I signed up for. 192 00:14:21,780 --> 00:14:26,500 A few hours later, there was a knock on my door. 193 00:14:28,740 --> 00:14:29,820 Chique came back. 194 00:14:30,580 --> 00:14:37,280 He told me, I cut him off and said, you realize that the police took me off of a 195 00:14:37,280 --> 00:14:39,860 bus and were going to take me to jail. 196 00:14:40,680 --> 00:14:44,380 He said, I'm really sorry, but right now I just need you to get to Bangkok. 197 00:14:45,260 --> 00:14:46,260 Fine. 198 00:14:46,900 --> 00:14:47,900 Go. 199 00:14:55,660 --> 00:15:00,980 About a block or two from the hotel, the taxi pulled over and he jumped out. 200 00:15:05,500 --> 00:15:09,540 Later on that evening, Chika came back to my room. Hi, Angela. 201 00:15:10,170 --> 00:15:11,830 And there was another guy with him. 202 00:15:12,450 --> 00:15:17,390 He said that he had a proposition for me that he would like to discuss. 203 00:15:19,470 --> 00:15:26,470 He said, Would you be willing to now add more 204 00:15:26,470 --> 00:15:27,590 to your package? 205 00:15:28,730 --> 00:15:33,490 I didn't see that there would be any bigger risk, really, because I didn't 206 00:15:33,490 --> 00:15:34,490 I would get caught. 207 00:15:34,890 --> 00:15:37,850 And I figured I'm going to make twice the amount of money. 208 00:15:38,540 --> 00:15:43,100 which means I can shop twice as much, I can vacation twice as much. It wasn't 209 00:15:43,100 --> 00:15:44,520 all responsible thoughts I was having. 210 00:15:45,260 --> 00:15:47,860 And so I said to him, all right, let's do it. 211 00:15:53,220 --> 00:15:55,300 And so then they started opening up the bag. 212 00:15:57,080 --> 00:15:58,940 And I see this brick. 213 00:16:01,740 --> 00:16:04,080 And Shike pulls out this other brick. 214 00:16:06,410 --> 00:16:10,230 He said we wrap it in this lining that we've taken out of these x -ray vests. 215 00:16:10,430 --> 00:16:14,170 It's going to make it invisible for the x -ray machine. 216 00:16:17,810 --> 00:16:20,670 I'm a little skeptical, but I'm listening to him. 217 00:16:25,570 --> 00:16:27,690 Then his friend took out a leather bag. 218 00:16:29,370 --> 00:16:34,350 He carefully unstitched all of the threading, placed the bricks. 219 00:16:35,060 --> 00:16:36,220 Down inside the lining. 220 00:16:38,360 --> 00:16:40,360 He glued that part of the bag together. 221 00:16:42,160 --> 00:16:44,800 You could tell he'd done this a lot of times before. 222 00:16:48,860 --> 00:16:50,540 I'm a little blown away by it. 223 00:16:51,400 --> 00:16:54,960 And so it gave me a little bit of a false sense of hope and confidence, 224 00:16:55,040 --> 00:16:57,480 actually, of being able to get through unrecognized. 225 00:16:58,840 --> 00:17:02,740 She gets it okay. That's it. I won't see you again between now and then. 226 00:17:03,600 --> 00:17:06,819 He handed me my ticket. My hotel room was already paid. 227 00:17:07,180 --> 00:17:10,220 And so they left. 228 00:17:20,680 --> 00:17:27,540 The next morning, for the first time, I was really, 229 00:17:27,660 --> 00:17:29,060 really afraid. 230 00:17:32,890 --> 00:17:37,170 I picked up my little leather bag, threw it on my shoulder, collected my things, 231 00:17:37,350 --> 00:17:40,810 checked out, and hailed a taxi. 232 00:17:45,730 --> 00:17:49,690 Driving along the streets of Bangkok, and I'm seeing all the normalcy around 233 00:17:49,830 --> 00:17:54,970 and somehow I feel as though I'm not really a part of it all. 234 00:17:55,430 --> 00:17:57,310 I'm somehow outside of it looking in. 235 00:18:00,330 --> 00:18:04,170 I remember looking up at one particular billboard just outside the airport. 236 00:18:06,130 --> 00:18:11,270 There was a picture of a man and a woman, and the words were, stay in 237 00:18:12,990 --> 00:18:14,570 I started to think about Andrew. 238 00:18:18,010 --> 00:18:21,490 At that moment, I thought to myself, I can't go through with this. 239 00:18:24,490 --> 00:18:26,350 Something bad is going to happen. 240 00:18:31,630 --> 00:18:36,110 But before I knew it, I've gotten out of the taxi. I've paid the driver. 241 00:18:38,470 --> 00:18:42,050 I have the carry -on, which is the one that had the drugs in it, over my 242 00:18:42,050 --> 00:18:43,390 shoulder with my purse. 243 00:18:45,390 --> 00:18:46,630 I walk through the door. 244 00:18:48,210 --> 00:18:52,310 I just see the big x -ray machine with the conveyor belt and the security 245 00:18:52,310 --> 00:18:53,310 section. 246 00:18:56,010 --> 00:18:59,250 But I'm still thinking, maybe I can just get to a bathroom and just ditch it in 247 00:18:59,250 --> 00:19:00,530 the toilet or ditch it in the trash. 248 00:19:03,490 --> 00:19:05,890 but I looked around and there wasn't anywhere else to go. 249 00:19:08,490 --> 00:19:09,710 And so then it hit me. 250 00:19:09,970 --> 00:19:12,430 It's time to put on my game face and let's do this. 251 00:19:19,690 --> 00:19:22,990 As I approached the x -ray machine, I first took my purse off. 252 00:19:23,410 --> 00:19:26,470 I knew that that bag was safe, so I figured, here, let's give them something 253 00:19:26,470 --> 00:19:28,430 that we know is okay first. 254 00:19:35,340 --> 00:19:38,700 There's one Thai woman at the x -ray machine. 255 00:19:39,320 --> 00:19:43,180 She's smiling at me, but she's looking at the screen. 256 00:19:47,500 --> 00:19:50,720 And then I immediately set the other bag on the conveyor belt. 257 00:19:52,320 --> 00:19:56,500 And I'm trying to not really act like I'm looking at her as closely as I am. 258 00:19:58,600 --> 00:20:00,240 And I walk through the metal detector. 259 00:20:02,220 --> 00:20:03,220 Nothing beats. 260 00:20:04,910 --> 00:20:06,970 I saw my purse pop out the other end. 261 00:20:09,310 --> 00:20:11,770 I'm seeing the other leather bag come through now. 262 00:20:13,770 --> 00:20:15,590 I was like, oh, yeah, I just did this. 263 00:20:16,110 --> 00:20:21,510 And I'm reaching to pick it up, and the Thai woman there says, My 264 00:20:21,510 --> 00:20:28,310 heart just dropped to the floor. 265 00:20:33,040 --> 00:20:34,560 She reverses the machine back. 266 00:20:37,200 --> 00:20:41,620 My stomach, my heart, every intestine in my body just thumps. 267 00:20:43,480 --> 00:20:44,480 I'm in trouble. 268 00:20:51,440 --> 00:20:54,420 I'm standing there with two bricks of heroin in my back. 269 00:20:57,720 --> 00:21:01,580 And I still have this big smile on my face, and I'm trying to just really just 270 00:21:01,580 --> 00:21:02,580 play this off. 271 00:21:04,750 --> 00:21:06,510 The Thai woman looks at the screen. 272 00:21:08,790 --> 00:21:11,430 She kind of zooms her eyes in just a little bit more. 273 00:21:14,990 --> 00:21:16,910 I'm starting to get nervous and scared now. 274 00:21:20,210 --> 00:21:23,450 She's looked over at another official in the airport. 275 00:21:24,930 --> 00:21:26,110 This was another woman. 276 00:21:33,040 --> 00:21:35,640 She takes her pen, and you hear it tap on the glass. 277 00:21:41,440 --> 00:21:46,900 She looked at me very, very suspicious, almost unbelievably, as though I didn't 278 00:21:46,900 --> 00:21:49,960 really fit the bill for what they were seeing right before their eyes. 279 00:21:51,920 --> 00:21:56,740 I've now leaned over, and as clear as I'm sitting here in this chair was as 280 00:21:56,740 --> 00:21:59,540 clear as you could see that rectangular brick in the bottom of that bag. 281 00:22:03,050 --> 00:22:06,850 I was instantly angry because I knew that Chike had lied. 282 00:22:07,070 --> 00:22:13,910 I actually felt a little woozy because 283 00:22:13,910 --> 00:22:16,830 all my worst fears had just come through. 284 00:22:19,150 --> 00:22:20,530 It was crystal clear. 285 00:22:21,310 --> 00:22:25,810 There was nothing that looked even remotely like it wasn't a big brick in 286 00:22:25,810 --> 00:22:26,810 bottom of your bag. 287 00:22:29,770 --> 00:22:33,370 All of a sudden, I see three Thai gentlemen walking towards me. 288 00:22:35,050 --> 00:22:36,050 Hi. 289 00:22:38,190 --> 00:22:39,770 And he said... Is this your bag? 290 00:22:41,390 --> 00:22:43,190 And I said, yes. Yes, it is. 291 00:22:43,990 --> 00:22:46,010 Did you pack it by yourself this morning? 292 00:22:46,890 --> 00:22:51,610 Right away when he asked me that, I thought that might be my one chance to 293 00:22:51,610 --> 00:22:52,670 somehow get out of it. 294 00:22:53,570 --> 00:22:56,990 And I said, no, actually, I didn't. My friend packed it for me. 295 00:22:57,670 --> 00:22:58,670 Oh. 296 00:23:00,290 --> 00:23:01,870 Okay. Can you come with me? 297 00:23:02,390 --> 00:23:06,770 I don't even know how to describe the feeling that came over me, but I knew 298 00:23:06,770 --> 00:23:08,830 this was going to be really, really bad. 299 00:23:11,610 --> 00:23:18,130 I see this wall that has 30 to 60 Polaroid pictures 300 00:23:18,130 --> 00:23:24,990 of various women sitting there with some sort of drug cut open in front of 301 00:23:24,990 --> 00:23:25,990 them. 302 00:23:26,290 --> 00:23:27,830 It was like the wall of shame. 303 00:23:28,840 --> 00:23:34,040 And they take everything out of the leather bag, and they just slice it 304 00:23:34,040 --> 00:23:35,040 open. 305 00:23:39,140 --> 00:23:42,580 At that point, I was like, oh, wow. 306 00:23:43,320 --> 00:23:45,700 This is not something that's going to go away. 307 00:23:48,120 --> 00:23:51,340 And you see the powder sort of spilling out over the edge. 308 00:23:52,380 --> 00:23:53,380 What's this? 309 00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:56,960 I said, I don't know. What is that? I told you I didn't pack my bag this 310 00:23:56,960 --> 00:23:57,960 morning. 311 00:23:58,830 --> 00:24:00,350 They pull out the test kit. 312 00:24:00,830 --> 00:24:03,470 They take a scoop of the powder. 313 00:24:05,870 --> 00:24:07,050 And it turns purple. 314 00:24:08,870 --> 00:24:11,370 He said, ah, heroin. 315 00:24:12,210 --> 00:24:13,210 You like? 316 00:24:14,130 --> 00:24:17,910 And I said, no, what are you talking about? Do I look like I use heroin? 317 00:24:18,970 --> 00:24:20,350 And I held my arms out. 318 00:24:22,890 --> 00:24:25,730 He just thinks this is hilarious. 319 00:24:30,190 --> 00:24:33,530 He looks at me and he said, You die. 320 00:24:34,010 --> 00:24:35,010 You die. 321 00:24:35,750 --> 00:24:36,750 You die. 322 00:24:38,730 --> 00:24:43,090 And it's starting to hit me. 323 00:24:43,590 --> 00:24:45,590 Where are all these women now? Are they dead? 324 00:24:50,850 --> 00:24:53,930 I knew that in Singapore, they'll kill you for smuggling drugs. 325 00:24:58,320 --> 00:25:00,520 But I honestly really knew nothing about how Thailand handled it. 326 00:25:04,940 --> 00:25:08,280 I started to get really afraid that maybe I was going to die. 327 00:25:15,420 --> 00:25:17,000 We got to a police station. 328 00:25:21,200 --> 00:25:23,780 The police officer said, you sleep here. 329 00:25:29,870 --> 00:25:30,970 And I don't see any women anywhere. 330 00:25:31,190 --> 00:25:34,230 All I see is, you know, seven or eight men in there. 331 00:25:35,330 --> 00:25:37,070 And I was freaked out. 332 00:25:39,170 --> 00:25:45,610 And so now it's me alone, standing in the cell. 333 00:25:49,750 --> 00:25:51,890 The male prisoners are all staring at me. 334 00:25:53,010 --> 00:25:55,650 I just was scared. I was afraid. 335 00:26:00,650 --> 00:26:05,370 I'm not able to function anymore, and I'm so distraught. 336 00:26:07,850 --> 00:26:12,770 I was going to get a death sentence, and I didn't know what to do. 337 00:26:15,330 --> 00:26:17,150 My life, it was over. 338 00:26:26,440 --> 00:26:31,280 so finally the day comes that i'm going to be transported over to the the prison 339 00:26:31,280 --> 00:26:37,580 itself it was a fairly short drive 340 00:26:37,580 --> 00:26:43,100 so we pulled up to the prison 341 00:26:43,100 --> 00:26:50,080 at this point i was still really scared and i was so 342 00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:53,840 really afraid i just didn't know what to expect 343 00:27:03,340 --> 00:27:06,340 And they start yelling all of a sudden, and all these Thai women start piling 344 00:27:06,340 --> 00:27:08,020 off, just rushing off the truck. 345 00:27:12,380 --> 00:27:19,220 They heard us 346 00:27:19,220 --> 00:27:21,180 into this very narrow hallway. 347 00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:29,300 The guard, she's very loud, and she's telling everyone what to do. 348 00:27:30,510 --> 00:27:33,770 She's being very authoritative, and she's being very rude and just kind of 349 00:27:36,310 --> 00:27:42,430 I noticed that all the Thais were taking off their bras and their panties and 350 00:27:42,430 --> 00:27:45,850 their shirts and getting fully searched. 351 00:27:48,370 --> 00:27:50,330 And I said, I'm not doing that. 352 00:27:50,910 --> 00:27:54,270 She kind of smiled, and she said, well, they're going to make you do it. 353 00:27:58,610 --> 00:27:59,650 We walk in. 354 00:28:00,320 --> 00:28:01,360 to the nurse's room. 355 00:28:06,480 --> 00:28:11,720 She motions for me to get up in this leather gynecological chair with metal 356 00:28:11,720 --> 00:28:12,720 stirrups in the end. 357 00:28:14,080 --> 00:28:17,940 I look on her hand, and I notice that she's got some latex gloves. 358 00:28:18,860 --> 00:28:23,040 And I see her rinsing her hand in this stinky bowl of solution of some sort. 359 00:28:24,160 --> 00:28:25,700 She tells me, get up in the chair. 360 00:28:27,280 --> 00:28:28,560 And I said, no, no, no. 361 00:28:28,860 --> 00:28:29,860 You need... 362 00:28:29,880 --> 00:28:30,880 A new glove. 363 00:28:31,540 --> 00:28:32,540 I clean. 364 00:28:33,560 --> 00:28:38,080 Clean. What's going through my head now is that every one of these 15, 20 girls 365 00:28:38,080 --> 00:28:42,580 that have come through here, you're wearing the same latex glove and just 366 00:28:42,580 --> 00:28:46,260 swishing your hand around this disgusting collusion that now has 20 367 00:28:46,260 --> 00:28:47,260 swishing it before me. 368 00:28:47,420 --> 00:28:48,920 And I just flat refuse. 369 00:28:49,460 --> 00:28:52,580 Clean, clean, clean, clean, clean. 370 00:28:53,300 --> 00:28:55,060 New, new glove. 371 00:28:55,640 --> 00:28:58,700 I looked at her like, you're crazy, right? 372 00:29:01,850 --> 00:29:04,270 Finally, she changed the glove and got me in the chair. 373 00:29:20,790 --> 00:29:26,570 I was looking up at the ceiling, and I just had tears flowing down the side of 374 00:29:26,570 --> 00:29:27,570 my face. 375 00:29:28,050 --> 00:29:30,810 She did a very unkind... 376 00:29:31,370 --> 00:29:34,690 unprofessional check of me to make sure supposedly that I had no drugs in my 377 00:29:34,690 --> 00:29:35,690 body. 378 00:29:36,870 --> 00:29:42,350 It was probably the most inhumane and humiliating thing that I had ever had to 379 00:29:42,350 --> 00:29:43,350 deal with. 380 00:29:45,510 --> 00:29:50,670 I had never felt so dirty, just worthless. 381 00:29:59,280 --> 00:30:01,880 Later that evening, we go upstairs to the sleeping building. 382 00:30:04,420 --> 00:30:08,520 And I'm looking and trying to figure out where am I going to sleep. 383 00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:11,680 There's just bodies all over the floor. 384 00:30:13,280 --> 00:30:16,660 So I proceeded to just do a beeline right across the room. 385 00:30:17,000 --> 00:30:18,280 And I kind of hopped. 386 00:30:19,920 --> 00:30:23,080 All of a sudden, all the Thai people just sat up. 387 00:30:27,340 --> 00:30:29,120 I was instantly scared to death. 388 00:30:32,040 --> 00:30:33,580 I don't really know what's going on. 389 00:30:38,040 --> 00:30:39,440 What have I gotten myself into? 390 00:30:42,220 --> 00:30:48,080 And then I hear one of the other prisoners say, I'm going to explain to 391 00:30:48,080 --> 00:30:49,080 rules right now. 392 00:30:53,360 --> 00:30:56,660 You can't do that. You can't show them the bottom of your feet. 393 00:30:59,459 --> 00:31:02,080 Your foot is the dirtiest thing in the whole world. 394 00:31:03,400 --> 00:31:06,760 And I had not only stepped across their feet, I was hopping over their heads, 395 00:31:06,820 --> 00:31:08,440 which is the biggest no -no. 396 00:31:13,440 --> 00:31:17,180 Now what I'm worried about is, would there be some type of repercussion? 397 00:31:17,180 --> 00:31:18,180 they harm me? 398 00:31:21,620 --> 00:31:24,320 I thought something bad is going to happen. 399 00:31:34,120 --> 00:31:37,800 As the days went by, I'm starting to kind of figure out just how really 400 00:31:37,800 --> 00:31:39,100 disgusting this place was. 401 00:31:41,960 --> 00:31:43,780 There's sometimes maggots in the rice. 402 00:31:44,540 --> 00:31:46,200 They serve it with this soup. 403 00:31:47,260 --> 00:31:51,340 We used to call it exploded fish head soup because it just looks like they 404 00:31:51,340 --> 00:31:53,220 a fish and blew it up and threw it in a pot. 405 00:32:03,500 --> 00:32:06,020 A gutter that went all the way around the prison. 406 00:32:07,700 --> 00:32:09,800 You could see it was toilet waste. 407 00:32:11,700 --> 00:32:13,800 It would overflow into the shower area. 408 00:32:16,380 --> 00:32:21,000 I never knew that human beings could be expected to live like this. 409 00:32:29,360 --> 00:32:32,360 I've been in prison for about seven months and 410 00:32:33,160 --> 00:32:34,760 I never stopped thinking about Andrew. 411 00:32:36,580 --> 00:32:38,420 And so I wrote him a letter. 412 00:32:41,860 --> 00:32:47,340 I explained how sorry I was for not listening to him and just coming home 413 00:32:47,340 --> 00:32:48,340 way that he told me to. 414 00:32:50,600 --> 00:32:54,780 And how much it would matter to me if I could just talk to him one more time. 415 00:33:00,520 --> 00:33:06,440 And I just said, if I die in this godforsaken place, just know that I 416 00:33:06,480 --> 00:33:07,560 and I always will. 417 00:33:22,480 --> 00:33:25,480 One day, I was told that I had to go to a legal visit. 418 00:33:30,700 --> 00:33:32,960 I see this guy standing there and he says, hi. 419 00:33:35,820 --> 00:33:41,620 Over the course of the visit, the lawyer explained to me how the sentencing 420 00:33:41,620 --> 00:33:42,620 works. 421 00:33:43,260 --> 00:33:46,000 He said if you fight your case, you're going to get a death sentence. 422 00:33:46,700 --> 00:33:51,020 But if you're willing to plead guilty... It's very likely they'll reduce it to a 423 00:33:51,020 --> 00:33:52,020 lower sentence. 424 00:33:52,380 --> 00:33:57,880 Great. He said there is a treaty with the United States and Thailand that... 425 00:33:58,410 --> 00:34:03,790 If you have a sentence, which is 50 years, you stay in Thailand for four 426 00:34:03,950 --> 00:34:07,230 And then be transferred to the United States for the remainder of your 427 00:34:08,210 --> 00:34:10,690 I just remember feeling so relieved. 428 00:34:11,810 --> 00:34:13,670 Okay, then I'll plead guilty. 429 00:34:14,050 --> 00:34:18,050 I could do four years. That's about all I could do. But I could do four years. 430 00:34:29,870 --> 00:34:31,050 I got called to court. 431 00:34:32,130 --> 00:34:34,290 I'd already done a couple of years by now. 432 00:34:37,489 --> 00:34:39,290 I was very, very nervous. 433 00:34:41,530 --> 00:34:44,070 Today was the day that I'm going to know when I'm going home. 434 00:34:47,310 --> 00:34:48,330 Angela Carnegie. 435 00:34:48,750 --> 00:34:50,989 And so they're reading the verdict. 436 00:34:53,810 --> 00:34:55,469 By now I spoke a little tired. 437 00:34:57,730 --> 00:35:00,710 I'm hearing, which means life. 438 00:35:03,550 --> 00:35:05,450 And I didn't quite understand that. 439 00:35:06,650 --> 00:35:08,710 I'm ready to hear 50 years or less. 440 00:35:09,790 --> 00:35:15,810 I got a little nervous, and I asked the translator, she said, your final court 441 00:35:15,810 --> 00:35:16,990 judgment is life. 442 00:35:21,330 --> 00:35:23,970 I instantly felt paralyzed. 443 00:35:28,750 --> 00:35:31,290 I said, what do you mean? I decided to plead guilty. 444 00:35:31,950 --> 00:35:33,850 I'm supposed to get a lower sentence. 445 00:35:34,990 --> 00:35:39,030 He said, no, that's not guaranteed. That's just sometimes they have mercy on 446 00:35:39,030 --> 00:35:40,030 you. 447 00:35:40,850 --> 00:35:45,670 And I said to her, why would they have mercy on everyone and not have mercy on 448 00:35:45,670 --> 00:35:46,670 me? 449 00:35:46,850 --> 00:35:47,890 I was devastated. 450 00:35:55,050 --> 00:35:57,590 Right outside the courtroom door was this big window. 451 00:36:02,510 --> 00:36:03,950 I looked out over the city. 452 00:36:06,630 --> 00:36:11,110 I decided at that moment that I didn't want to live anymore. 453 00:36:16,250 --> 00:36:18,990 The guard was distracted speaking to someone else. 454 00:36:21,470 --> 00:36:24,350 I stepped up on a little ledge. 455 00:36:27,830 --> 00:36:29,410 I thought about Andrew again. 456 00:36:35,760 --> 00:36:36,960 And I thought about my mom. 457 00:36:44,100 --> 00:36:46,160 I just thought it was the easiest solution. 458 00:36:47,000 --> 00:36:48,680 I thought that I would stop hurting. 459 00:36:56,760 --> 00:37:00,800 And that this whole thing could kind of be over for everyone if I just wasn't 460 00:37:00,800 --> 00:37:01,800 around anymore. 461 00:37:05,040 --> 00:37:06,300 The guard caught me. 462 00:37:06,720 --> 00:37:12,360 He said, no, no, no, you can't die because you have to think about your 463 00:37:12,360 --> 00:37:13,360 and your friends. 464 00:37:19,580 --> 00:37:22,580 And I just remember feeling so hopeless and so helpless. 465 00:37:26,980 --> 00:37:28,960 I couldn't even pull it off to kill myself. 466 00:37:42,060 --> 00:37:44,880 When I get back to the prison, everyone's waiting on the sidewalk. 467 00:37:49,220 --> 00:37:51,980 Instantly, they knew that something really bad had happened. 468 00:37:55,780 --> 00:37:58,060 And all of a sudden, this girl looked at me. 469 00:37:58,980 --> 00:38:00,780 And she laughed at me. 470 00:38:01,320 --> 00:38:07,940 She said, long high, long high, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. 471 00:38:08,380 --> 00:38:09,900 And long high means to cry. 472 00:38:13,230 --> 00:38:14,850 Something inside of me snapped. 473 00:38:16,490 --> 00:38:20,910 And all that grief and all that sorrow turned to anger and rage. 474 00:38:26,770 --> 00:38:32,670 I put my hand and I put it around her throat and I physically picked her body 475 00:38:32,670 --> 00:38:33,670 off the ground. 476 00:38:41,770 --> 00:38:42,770 I wanted to kill her. 477 00:38:45,750 --> 00:38:52,150 I was going to kill her for laughing at my pain and laughing at my sorrow. 478 00:38:55,310 --> 00:38:57,710 Now I'm squeezing in. I'm digging into it. 479 00:39:00,930 --> 00:39:04,570 There was a certain amount of excitement and kind of this adrenaline rush that I 480 00:39:04,570 --> 00:39:05,570 was getting. 481 00:39:07,850 --> 00:39:10,570 All the other prisoners were pleading with me, and they were saying, please, 482 00:39:10,590 --> 00:39:11,590 Angela, stop. 483 00:39:13,330 --> 00:39:16,830 And finally, they got me off of this girl, and she just dropped to the 484 00:39:19,590 --> 00:39:26,210 I don't know where that evil thing came out in me, but it did. 485 00:39:33,650 --> 00:39:35,350 One of the officers came over. 486 00:39:38,320 --> 00:39:40,060 And she said, okay, she needs to stay with me. 487 00:39:40,600 --> 00:39:42,760 I need to make sure that she's not going to hurt herself. 488 00:39:44,460 --> 00:39:47,320 It was pretty obvious at this point that I'd had a nervous breakdown. 489 00:39:59,380 --> 00:40:03,620 She just gave me a place to just kind of pull me out of this really introverted 490 00:40:03,620 --> 00:40:04,620 state that I was in. 491 00:40:07,980 --> 00:40:12,420 Just kind of lay down and just relax and not really deal with anything. 492 00:40:27,400 --> 00:40:30,840 Over the course of a couple of months, I started functioning again. 493 00:40:33,260 --> 00:40:36,600 Then one day, there was another foreign woman arrested. 494 00:40:40,819 --> 00:40:42,320 Cussing at the officers and she's arguing. 495 00:40:45,020 --> 00:40:51,480 And then the guard said to me, you 496 00:40:51,480 --> 00:40:53,900 need to take care of her. 497 00:40:56,880 --> 00:41:00,600 So she went in the room with me that night and of course she didn't sleep. 498 00:41:00,600 --> 00:41:02,100 was up all night and I was up with her. 499 00:41:07,520 --> 00:41:12,060 I was afraid that if no one was kind of comforting her that the ties would harm 500 00:41:12,060 --> 00:41:13,060 her. 501 00:41:15,580 --> 00:41:16,740 She was very sick. 502 00:41:17,340 --> 00:41:21,680 You knew that she was a heroin addict. 503 00:41:24,480 --> 00:41:30,240 It really hit me just how awful the effects of heroin really were. 504 00:41:33,740 --> 00:41:38,340 I thought about how many people I would have hurt by what I had intended to do. 505 00:41:43,150 --> 00:41:46,910 I decided at that moment that I needed to somehow help this woman. 506 00:41:51,310 --> 00:41:54,350 I sort of felt like it was the only way that I could kind of make amends for 507 00:41:54,350 --> 00:41:55,350 what I'd done. 508 00:42:00,770 --> 00:42:02,790 And I felt like I really had a purpose. 509 00:42:05,110 --> 00:42:08,450 I need to really be a different person. 510 00:42:15,950 --> 00:42:19,330 From that moment on, the time just started to just fly. 511 00:42:23,310 --> 00:42:24,470 The months went by. 512 00:42:26,770 --> 00:42:27,950 The years went by. 513 00:42:30,030 --> 00:42:31,790 And I had a certain inner peace. 514 00:42:35,070 --> 00:42:38,910 And I started now planning, okay, there's life after prison. 515 00:42:46,190 --> 00:42:49,710 The big day finally came and they called my name on the microphone. 516 00:42:57,690 --> 00:43:00,290 There were people crowding all in the courtyard. 517 00:43:02,410 --> 00:43:05,350 I waved and I blew kisses and I smiled and I cried. 518 00:43:08,250 --> 00:43:11,610 The guards opened up that steel door for the last time. 519 00:43:16,650 --> 00:43:18,890 I never looked back into that horrible place again. 520 00:43:38,970 --> 00:43:45,230 So finally, I get back to the States, and once again, Andrew pops into my 521 00:43:48,040 --> 00:43:49,420 I knew that I'd always love him. 522 00:43:51,980 --> 00:43:53,020 I called up. 523 00:43:53,400 --> 00:43:54,420 I said, Andrew? 524 00:43:54,720 --> 00:43:55,920 I said, who is this? 525 00:43:56,600 --> 00:43:58,320 I said, hey, how are you? 526 00:43:59,320 --> 00:44:00,320 I'm back. 527 00:44:02,920 --> 00:44:05,380 And we spent about eight hours on the phone that day. 528 00:44:05,680 --> 00:44:06,680 Yeah. 529 00:44:07,120 --> 00:44:08,120 I know. 530 00:44:10,520 --> 00:44:16,100 And within a couple of months, Andrew had packed up and flown out here to be 531 00:44:16,100 --> 00:44:17,100 with me in California. 532 00:44:22,860 --> 00:44:27,820 That was nine years ago, and now we're married and we're happily married. 533 00:44:33,280 --> 00:44:39,680 As difficult as those nine years in prison were, without them, we wouldn't 534 00:44:39,680 --> 00:44:41,680 made it and we wouldn't have been back together. 535 00:44:45,140 --> 00:44:50,520 We have a really happy and wonderful life together, and that's where we are 536 00:44:50,520 --> 00:44:51,520 today. 537 00:44:55,180 --> 00:45:01,160 As human beings, we all have our own name and persona, our unique identity. 538 00:45:02,760 --> 00:45:05,780 But some people adopt secret alter egos. 539 00:45:08,620 --> 00:45:09,960 Double identities. 540 00:45:11,700 --> 00:45:17,580 In Seattle, a masked man takes the law into his own hands. 541 00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:22,620 I either fix the problem when I see it or I don't. If that makes me crazy, then 542 00:45:22,620 --> 00:45:23,620 I guess I'm crazy. 543 00:45:23,900 --> 00:45:27,040 In Utah... There's actually something I've been meaning to tell you guys. 544 00:45:27,300 --> 00:45:30,460 A woman in a wheelchair holds a dark secret. 545 00:45:30,700 --> 00:45:33,640 I'm a little bit nervous about telling this friend. 546 00:45:34,560 --> 00:45:37,720 In Minnesota... Oh, I love that sound. 547 00:45:38,080 --> 00:45:42,040 A man turns hobo, leaving behind his real life. 548 00:45:42,500 --> 00:45:43,660 You are mine. 549 00:45:44,100 --> 00:45:48,860 And in Canada, an underground group harbors an inner animal. 550 00:45:49,400 --> 00:45:52,700 So I don't run up to people on the street and say, guess what, I'm a furry. 551 00:45:54,670 --> 00:46:01,270 When people keep secrets, even lie to maintain two identities, their whole 552 00:46:01,270 --> 00:46:04,370 life can become taboo.